Transplant Recovery Part 2

I wanted to pick up from my last post and touch more on the recovery mentally and physically. After going through cancer, heart failure and a transplant, all types of things start to run through your head. You of course go through the "why me" phase and in my case, I went through also what I call "it's never going to end" phase. During recovery it seemed like every time i made progress I would then take two steps back. All the medications started to do a number on my kidneys, a constant battle of making sure my medications were at a dose that was effective but at the same time does not destroy my kidney's. At 6 months post op I finally started to feel a little normal and I'm hit with "you need to be evaluated for a kidney transplant". So, I went through a process to determine if I qualify for a transplant for my kidneys. Believe it or not it's actually harder to receive a kidney transplant than a heart, strange I thought. At this point some of my other symptoms from medications and the transplant are actually getting a little better. To wrap this post up, the kidney team called me a few weeks back to inform me my kidneys number were bad, but not bad enough for a transplant. So, good and bad news there, I guess.